Last night was simply amazing for me. I was reading the Bible and was reading on the first mention of Elijah in the Bible. Many people have mentioned to me that I seem like Elijah, having done so much for the Lord over the past so many years, I am so tired now and decided to have a break and rest. Burnt out…they call it I guess. So since so many said that I am like Prophet Elijah, so I decided to take a closer look at Elijah and understand why he experienced a burnt out while doing the work of God and how did he respond to his burnt out condition. As I was reading, the Lord also reminded what my Pastor mentioned in the morning during the Holy Communion Service that I attended. He said that it is very important for Christians to know the extent of Christ’s love for us. Many Christians are living a defeated life because they do not have a full understanding of the love of God for us. Pastor put it so simply that God love us so much that He sacrificed His Son on the Cross so that we can be reconciled with Him. As simple as that! The Bible tells us that “greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends” (John 15:13). What is more exciting is that Jesus said, “You are my friends if you do what I command you” (John 15:14). I cannot think of another faith in the world that is as simple as this.
Yesterday night, when I thought about the love of God, I was so moved that I was on my knee praying. I was kneeling beside my comfy bed and I started telling God how I long for Him to fill my heart with His love. Now I need to unpack here that this love love thingy is not something to be perceived as something soft and weak. God’s love is never soft. As a matter of fact, God’s love came in the form of blood and wounds. Pastor mentioned that a lot of us are feeling empty and void because our hearts are not filled with God’s divine and everlasting love. So my prayer to God was for Him to fill my heart with His love again. To so fill it that it will overflow. Only when God’s love starts to overflow from us, then can we relate with one another by the same love. Then our relationship with others will be build on the love of Christ.
After some time of praying for God’s love to fill me, my prayer turned a different direction. I began to tell Jesus how much I love Him. I began to sing songs that expressed my love for Him. Of course, loving God is more than just in the singing. To love God is to obey His command and to go His will. For that moment, I felt that God has planted once again the seed of love in my heart. I still like the verse from John 3:16, “For God so loved the world, that he GAVE his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” God is a gracious and giving God.
During my sabbatical leave, it is my prayer that God will continue to draw me closer to Himself and to allow to release me to love Him even more. Sometimes we are so bound by our past and also our current situations that we are not able to love Him or to see that He love us. I need to learn to let go and let God take over from here. This is not an easy process but it is not an impossible task. In fact, to let go is really to let God take full control over the situation and to say that He has full sovereignty over everything.
Let God be God….